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Drawing a Blank
Drunken-lotus when I wrote this
I’m chokin’ on my brokenness
hopein’ against hopelessness
woke and I was scopin’ this
truth in our reality, ponderin’
where should I be, wonderin’
calamity, astonishment
at query of accomplishments
this verse is dumbfounded and
this verse is dumbfounded and
I curse this unfounded and
Herculean logician canned
Olympian delusions
many eons and no solutions
egocentric push got me listenin’
to Kendrick’s Kush and Corinthians
cramming solutions to the feat
in the fetal position, repeated
achievement unsaid and unlocked
dragging myself out of bed when I block
all the straggling self-hate that says
this poem is a lie to self
this poem says goodbye to health
throw him evil-eye yourself
this poem is a cry for help
help, help, help, help
I added melodrama here
so you could save what’s left
even the Dali Lama fears
nature of life bereft
an empty diorama, years
neglected and distressed
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Written for imaginary garden with real toads Literary Excursions with Kerry ~ Metafiction.
Hephaestus’ Waste & Cosmic Rubble 
For what it’s worth, I’m glad you popped up in my feed this morning. The poem is tragically sound. A bit somber, but a sting that won’t let up lives in it. Great work, Barry.
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Thanks trE. True story; in a recent job interview, I was asked to name my most significant accomplishment during the past year. I was stumped because all I’ve done is replace laptops, help people preserve their data, and try not to get yelled at about things I could never control in the 1st place. This poem kinda materialized within that moment.
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Hmm, sounds like you did a lot to keep people working at the efficiencies they are used to.
If you don’t mind me saying so, that’s nothing to huff at.
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Will you be my agent? At least write the forward to my next book. I could use an advocate like you. 😉
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Haha! I wouldn’t mind writing the Foreword. That would be an honor.
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“help, help, help, help
I added melodrama here” …. made me smile and at the same time see a new depth of raw emotion.
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Thank you. I’m glad my words made you smile.
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Before I saw the Kendrick Lamar video, I was already rapping your lines in my head. You got a great beat going there with the internal rhymes.
this poem is a lie to self
this poem says goodbye to health
throw him evil-eye yourself
this poem is a cry for help
You have summed it up so well.
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Thank you, Kerry. K-Dot is mos def my favorite rapper.
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I love the beat… and the added melodrama… which came out as almost an apology for the darkness that rings true…
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Thanks man. I agree with you. The fun part about going meta is that you can wink at yourself and kinda pull back from the abyss a bit.
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I love the way you add that melodrama that makes this poem what it is.. a gem!❤️
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Thank you for this gem of a compliment!
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